Victory

I have taken professional classes in all manner of topics - writing, photography, cooking, makeup artistry - tons. I've left those classes feeling secure in my knowledge, even victorious over mastering some new skill.

Tango classes aren't really like that.

When you leave tango workshops, you generally have a grocery list of new things you get to work on, new areas where you now know that you're weak.

In apilado class, we covered a style I've been wanting to learn very badly - but enthusiasm will only take you so far. Then you have to get to work. And work hard. I still pulled my shoulders back. I still wasn't bending my knees enough or extended my leg back far enough - or rather starting the motion where it was supposed to start, much higher up. And if I worked on one part, I stopped working on others - like keeping my ankles together. In apilado position, you become much more aware of your comfort and that of your partner. You're suddenly aware of how tall you are, where and how you fit together. Some people are easier instantly - some take more adjustment - especially when you're first learning to trust each other and the dance.

Behind me, as we rotated partners, I heard Daniela say, "I need a bigger girl" (to demonstrate with) and I giggled, until I realized she meant me. I knew what she meant though, I think. The young woman she was demonstrating with before that was very, very petite - and just learning this like the rest of us. With inexperience all around, choosing a woman closer to her frame is simply easier to demonstrate with and less intimidating for the student. Dancing with Daniela feels very comfortable. She feels secure - especially when she's telling me, "lean, lean, more, more, more - good!" I must admit to thinking that being led apilado steps by a woman would feel uncomfortable - and that truly wasn't the case. It's always nerve-wracking to dance with the instructor - but I felt such a strong, secure lead from her that I couldn't help but relax a bit and just get to "work". As we rotated around, I found I had different things I needed to do to get comfortable and balanced against their frame. Connection is paramount to absolutely everything else in this style.

From there we went into Milonga class where I had my a** handed to me on platter, as my dad would say. I'm a bit of a disaster during milongas - which is why I took this class. As we went through exercise after exercise, drill after drill, she finally said, 'okay, get a partner!' You mean that was the warm up??? I was already sweating like mad, and my ankles and calves were burning. Now you want me to do all of this craziness to the music!? You betcha - with all of the little pauses and 'rushes' in the phrasing. And keep connection. And collect your feet. A**. Platter. Thank you.

So now I have my list of stuff to work on - some things I already knew, some new areas.

But I did have one victory and it's a big one. (Other than just getting my butt to the class - which is a bit of a victory.) I could watch myself in the mirror - all of me, not just my feet - without flinching. I could keep an eye on my shoulders, my posture, my hips - everything, without having the sudden and pervasive desire to look away. I could face myself and my areas of weakness, my areas of progress - and really look.

(If I could have managed it in that state of exhaustion,) maybe I should have a victory lap after all.

5 comments:

bastetsbeads said...

good going girl! Now to all those people you have read that say milonguero or aplidao is "lazy" because you are "out of balance" and "leaning on each other for balance" rather than having to have your own...you can hand them their a**. On a platter.

AmpsterTango said...

I hope that someday you make it to Seattle so we can dance a tanda or two, or three

Mari said...

bastetsbeads - you crack me up!! It *was* so much fun. And Daniela had to show me exactly what you had to talked about - you really can't see from outside the embrace what muscles you're going to need to use. It's an illusion. You find it when you're actually doing it. That was one of many 'aha!' moments.

Ampster - Seattle's on my list :) Of course 'y'all are welcome to come on down' to Texas. We are the friendly state, you know. *lol*

Keno said...

You know that when I came to Austin it was really nice to dance with you, so next time it will be even beter. I love your insites as a follow because as a leader I am always learning how to make that connection with the follows so she can relax and just enjoy. Thanks for sharing

Mari said...

Keno: "so next time it will be even better" - eeek! the pressure lol!! Actually I've figured out the key to good dancing for me. When I'm so tired that I can't think anymore - I do so much better. *snicker* Apparently, more dancey-dancey and less thinky-thinky.

I'm glad you like the posts, I'm always just sure I'm going to either embarass myself, or offend someone. So reassurance is nice. :)